this is me:D

IM BACK. FOR 30 SECONDS! (:

2010-04-16T13:42:00.004+08:00

HELLO! (:

THIS BLOG IS DEAD.

HEEHEEHEEHEE.

We are the world. for haiti.

2010-02-25T00:22:00.002+08:00

One more, Written by Chester See, dedicated to Haiti relief. Enjoy.

It's too much
there's no time
takes too long
it's not my fight
it's easier to turn away

It's too hard
not my fault
don't understand
or care to find out
it's easier to turn away

But Time leaves us wondering where she went
and I wanna change the way she's spent

so this song's for me
this song's for you
this song's for everyone that knows just what
this world is going though
this song's for us
this song's for them
this song's for everyone that wants to do
all the things we've said but we never did

words and words I've said before
fervor dies and I ignore
the things that I thought I cared for
am I real at all?

pretend to love or love pretends
to be all we need like Lennon said
but only if when in the end
it's more than just these words

But Time leaves us wondering where she went
and I wanna change the way she's spent

so this song's for me
this song's for you
this song's for everyone that knows just what
this world is going though
this song's for us
this song's for them
this song's for everyone that wants to do
all the things we've said but we never did

But Time leaves us wondering where she went
and I wanna change the way she's spent

so this song's for me
this song's for you
this song's for everyone that knows just what
this world is going though
this song's for us
this song's for them
this song's for everyone that wants to do
all the things we've said but we never did

We never did
we never did
we never did
we never did

I cannot think straight now.

2010-02-16T20:35:00.002+08:00

Paint yourself a picture, when you break another picture.

Isn't that what many people will do when their lives fail?

To live a new life, and abandon the old one for a better life?

Unfortunately, I don't think I can do so.

Simply because I do not believe in that.

This is such a saddist thought.

2010-02-05T00:02:00.000+08:00

I like what I'm seeing now (:

2010-01-28T12:46:00.002+08:00

FRUSTRATED FRUSTRATED FRUSTRATED FRUSTRATED FRUSTRATED FRUSTRATED

That's about it I guess. This few weeks, ARE SO Effing SCREWED UP.

I AM GOING TO VOID MYSELF OF ALL EMOTIONS. Effing hell.

Don't ask me to cheer up, I'll feel even more irritated. HA.

Shit, I'm really very cranky.

kthxbai.

Ever felt like that?

2010-01-26T15:37:00.000+08:00

Issue on Racism.

Tell us alot.

2010-01-16T01:07:00.001+08:00

New Year started 16 days ago. And many things have changed and happened since.

But i'm glad they did.

I wana do a proper update, but tired. so im off to sleep first.

NIGHTS PEOPLE

PICTURES WILL BE UP SOOOON.

2010-01-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

Appearance: A dark haired man who has difficulty walking due to misformed feet. Some accounts make him small in stature.
Symbol or Attribute: The forge and fire.
Strengths: Creative, cunning, an able metal worker
Weaknesses:Can't handle his liquor; can be crafty and vindictive.
Parents: Usually said to be Zeus and Hera; some say Hera bore him without the help of a father. Hera is also said to have thrown him into the sea, where he was rescued by Thetis and her sisters.
Spouse: Aphrodite. The blacksmith-god married well. Other tales give him as wife the youngest of the Graces, Aglaia.
Children: He created Pandora of the famous box; some tales give him as the father of Eros, though most ascribe this love-god to the union of Ares and Aphrodite. Some divine genealogies have him as the father or grandfather of Radamanthys who ruled at Phaestos on the island of Crete, though he is usually considered to be the son of Io and Zeus.
Some Major Temple Sites: The Hephaestaion near the Acropolis in Athens, which is the best-preserved Doric-style temple in Greece, built in 449 B.C.E. He was also associated with the islands of Naxos and Lemnos.
Basic Story: Feeling rejected by his mother Hera, Hephaestus made a lovely throne for her and sent it to Olympus. She sat in it and discovered she could not get up again. Then the chair levitated. The other Olympian gods tried to reason with Hephaestus, but even Ares was driven off with his flames. He finally was given wine by Dionysus and, drunk, was brought to Olmypus. Drunk or not, he still refused to free Hera unless he could have either Aphrodite or Athene as wife. He ended up with Aphrodite, who in this instance was not a quick learner. When she lay with his brother Ares in the bed Hephaestus had made, chains emerged and they could not leave the bed, exposing them to the laughter of the rest of the Olympians when Hephaestus called them all together to witness his adulterous wife and brother.
Interesting Fact:Hephaestus could sometimes be called Daidalos, connecting him to the famous Cretan craftsman who was the first to fly.
Alternate spelling Hephaistos

2009-12-26T03:00:00.003+08:00

I seriously need to get some sleep at this hour.

I think I'm becoming nocturnal since the TETL movie project.

Give me something, anything that can make me really sleep without nightmares or dreams, and I'll try to sleep.

Things haven't really been going well recently for many people and myself.

Have faith and we'll all pull through, guys.

You know I love you(:

Happy boxing day, people!

2009-12-06T20:32:00.002+08:00

I've been at the new place since I don't know when. Half a year already? Hmm.

Well, I want to sleep. now. but i haven studied. SO ADIOs. until i don't know when(:

2009-11-29T13:51:00.002+08:00

7x13=28

Don't believe me? WATCH THIS.

HAH :D

2009-11-26T19:49:00.002+08:00

Don't make empty promises to me.

Don't know, don't care, CANNOT BE BOTHERED, leiyi, remember this? (:

WHENEVER YOU REMEMBER - CARRIE UNDERWOOD.

When You Look Back On Times We Had

i Hope You Smile

and Know That Through The Good And Through The Bad

i Was On Your Side When Nobody Could Hold Us Down

we Claimed The Brightest Star

and We, We Came So Far

and No They Won't Forget

(Chorus)

whenever You Remember Times Gone By

remember How We Held Our Heads So High

when All This World Was There For Us

and We Believe That We Could Touch The Sky

whenever You Remember, I'll Be There

remember How We Reached That Dream Together

whenever You Remember

when You Think Back On All We've Done

i Hope You're Proud

when You Look Back And See How Far We've Come

it Was Our Time To Shine

and Nobody Could Hold Us Down

they Thought They'd See Us Fall

but We, We Stood So Tall

and No We Won't Forget

whenever You Remember Times Gone By

remember How We Held Our Heads So High

when All This World Was There For Us

and We Believe That We Could Touch The Sky

whenever You Remember, I'll Be There

remember How We Reached That Dream Together

whenever You Remember

yeahhh, Ooohh

we Claimed The Brightest Star

and We, We Came So Far

and Know That We Showed Them All

and No They Won't Forget

yeahhh

whenever You Remember Times Gone By

remember How We Held Our Heads So High

when All This World Was There For Us

and We Believe That We Could Touch The Sky

whenever You Remember, I'll Be There

remember How We Reached That Dream Together

whenever You Remember

ooohh, Whenever You Remember

2009-11-26T14:23:00.002+08:00

I'm losing sleep.

REALLY REALLY TIRED.

"i also v tired...." --> Jessica -.-

There are many things going on, I am so tired and afraid of thinking about them.

And bury myself in Assignments, simply because I don't want to think about it.

I want to put those things down, and move on.

Give me a chance.

As the Festive seasons approaches, I feel a part missing.

It's never going to be the same again.

I miss you.

2009-11-21T13:49:00.003+08:00

I YAMZ IN THE LIBRARY WITH LEONG YANMIN NOWWWWWZ.

SHE IS LATE FOR 2 HOURS.

AND SHE'S COMPLAINING THAT I SHOULDN'T BLOG EVERYTIME MY LAPTOP IS WITH ME AND I YAMZ WITH HER. PLUS POINT. SHE'S SITIING BESIDE ME NOW. HAHAHA.

It's really fun to criticise her when she's sitting beside me. (:

& yet, looking happy does not mean being happy. That one last goodbye is tough.

Hiding behind that mask of happiness ain't a tough job afterall.

I will miss you. God bless.

New Years will never be the same again.

FLOOOOOOOD :D

2009-11-19T17:16:00.003+08:00

First ever time I experienced such a flood. Seriously bad.

EVERYWHERE in NP had a flood, convention centre, atrium, roads, ponds.

Tell me about it.

I walked from the Library to MKP without my shoes!

And my jeans still got wet even after rolling it up.

So yeah. That's how bad it is.

Even MKP got it's share now. TSKTSK.

Or you can check out on FB, some dude post a video about the flooding around the areas.

Its a horrible weather. Ankle deep water at least everywhere. It's the worst flood I've experienced in school!!

OUH MAN, I'M GOING TO FALL SICK AGAIN SOON. I CAN FEEL IT COMING! ):

2009-11-19T00:50:00.001+08:00

And amidst the sadness, there is always a conflict of emotions.

I hate it when the both of them does things like that late at night.

2009-11-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

It never felt good to lose someone you've known for the whole of your life.

Even if that person was never that close to you.

It is never, and will never be.

I guess I just wasn't ready.

(:

2009-11-17T01:07:00.001+08:00

Getting to talk to a friend in long conversations once in awhile is

GOOD. (:

Beautiful Song.

2009-11-15T19:10:00.003+08:00

NICE SONG. ENJOY(:

Credits to Shawn Siau for letting me listen to it!

Chester See widget by 6L &

♥♥♥♥♥♥

2009-11-14T23:50:00.005+08:00

♥

I'm not at home now.

But I love being with my love.

She makes me feel safe and cosy in this cold weather (:

I love you honey!

Ps. She's my cousin. hahahahah!

I wanna feel your warmth against me. =X

2009-11-14T01:19:00.001+08:00

Insecurity.

Is just being friends not good enough?

We'll never know, because they'll never show.

It was a brand new experience and feeling there.

And it's making me feel...

Weird.

2009-11-12T22:52:00.003+08:00

So what am I supposed to do now?

ARRRHHHHHHHH GAHHHHHHHHH RAHHHHHHH.

I really have no idea.

It's like, this semester hasn't been as good as I thought it would be. I need to catch up on my work. I need to catch up on my sleep. I need to get a stable income SOON. I need to control what I think sometimes. It's making myself confused.

But on second thoughts. There are some things that help cover up the bad parts (:

Second Chance - Faber Drive

I found the phone

I must?ve missed your message

You got it wrong, It wasn?t what your friend said.

I can tell by your tone, I?ve taken it too far again.

Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

Your friends are telling you, You gotta move on.

Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.

You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.

I don?t know why i ever waited to say.

Cuz I?m just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.

I should?ve let you in, but I let you down.

You were the first to give ,I was the first to ask.

Now I?m in second place, to get a second chance.

I should've known, took you and I for granted

Gotta let you know, I was never underhanded.

Tell by your tone, I?ve taken it too far again.

Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.

Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.

You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.

I don?t know why i ever waited to say.

Cuz I?m just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.

I should?ve let you in, but I let you down.

You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.

Now I?m in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.

I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.

You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.

Now I?m in second place, to get a second chance.

What you give is always what you get.

There's so much I haven't given yet. (or theres so much i havent given you)

it seems so different with(out) a second chance.

Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.

Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.

You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.

I don?t know why I ever waited to say.

Cuz I?m just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.

I should?ve let you in, but I let you down.

You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.

Now I?m in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.

I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.

You were the first to give I was the first to ask.

Now I?m in second place to get a second chance.

Instead of holding you, I was holding out? (second chance)

I should?ve let you in, but I let you down (second chance)

You were the first to give, I was the first to ask? (second chance)

Now I?m in second place, to get a second chance.

2009-11-12T00:18:00.007+08:00

暗号

我想要的 想做的 

你比誰都了
你想說的 想給的 

我全都知道 
未接來電 沒留言 

一定是你孤單的想念 
任何人都 猜不到 

這是我們的暗號 

他們猜 隨便猜 不重要 
連上彼此的訊號 才有個依靠
有太多人太多事 

夾在我們之間咆哮
雜訊太多訊號弱 

就連風吹都要干擾
可是你不想 

一直走在黑暗地下道
想吹風 想自由 

想要一起手牽手
去看海 繞世界流浪

我害怕你心碎沒人幫你擦眼 
別管那是非 

只要我們感覺對

我害怕你心碎沒人幫你擦眼梡

別離開身邊 

擁有你我的世界才能完美

你說你想逃開鬆手 

愛太累 

愛得不自由 
因為我給不起最簡單的承諾 
你停止收訊號 

我開始搜尋不到 
到底有誰知道 

是幾點鐘方向 

你才椰洧鼒t號 

Is it really so?

2009-11-11T21:40:00.000+08:00

On the first day, God created the dog and said:

'Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this, I will give you a life span of twenty years.'

The dog said: 'That's a long time to be barking. How about only ten years and I'll give you back the other ten?'

So God agreed.

On the second day, God created the monkey and said:

'Entertain people, do tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I'll give you a twenty-year life span.'

The monkey said: 'Monkey tricks for twenty years? That's a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the Dog did?'

And God agreed.
On the third day, God created the cow and said:
'You must go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer's family. For this, I will give you a life span of sixty years.'

The cow said: 'That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years.. How about twenty and I'll give back the other forty?'

And God agreed again.

On the fourth day, God created humans and said:

'Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. For this, I'll give you twenty years.'

But the human said: 'Only twenty years? Could you possibly give me my twenty, the forty the cow gave back, the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back; that makes eighty, okay?'

'Okay,' said God, 'You asked for it'

So that is why for our first twenty years we eat, sleep, play and enjoy ourselves. For the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family.. For the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren.. And for the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.

Life has now been explained to you.

There is no need to thank me for this valuable information. I'm doing it as a public service.

2009-11-11T01:04:00.002+08:00

I think, I'm making myself more stupid by thinking more. ):

I felt the difference. From you and you. Yeah.

2009-11-10T16:10:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHHAH.

THIS IS SUPER HILARIOUS. :D

2009-11-06T11:32:00.005+08:00

"How tired I am of this unbearable distance between us.

How I long, for the toll of recess bell.

Have you forgotten me; grown mindless of me?

Tell me I am not writing into an abyss - or that is what will become, of my heart."

This video's sweet. Especially what was written on the note. Touching.

Was shown during Child Lit lecture. & it's been kind of in my mind recently.

So I decided to post it up, to share (:

2009-11-06T00:45:00.001+08:00

YES LAPPY'S BACK IN ACTION.

WHICH MEANS I'VE GOT WORK TO RUSH,THINGS TO DOWNLOAD AND ASSIGNMENTS TO BE HANDED UP ASAP.

2009-11-04T23:14:00.005+08:00

Weird things happens at weird times and I'm weirdly affected by it.

Things just DOESN'T seems to make sense nowadays.

When we come to this age. We're exposed to many things. So it ain't a surprise I guess.

Child Literature. It's a fun topic, but it can't be helped to be thought as boring when the one teaching it, is boring. =X

Speech lesson. The one motivation for me to wake up early in the morning. I think many of T04 thinks that way too. (:
It's just.....so US. Love my class to the max. I really do (x
Thanks for being there for me guys! oooops. GIRLS. and a DUDE. heehee.

IT lessons. So not looking forward. But there's photoshop this sessions. So. OUH WELL.
Bearing with it for the time being.

Bringing my lappy for servicing tomorrow straight after lessons with Gum. Really cannot take the torturous life without it now, because half the Sem's module requires the use of lappy.
And time to treat ourselves with nice FOOD on the way to Funan and back. (:

Storytelling materials due on friday, but I have yet to complete20%. wish me luck. There're tons to be completed.

Alright. I'm heading off to bed now. Am feeling tired VERY EARLY at unusual times lately. Unhealthy girl. tsktsk.

I am going to have to try to stop posting two different things and decide where to post my future entries.
Yes I've realized that I have been posting more frequently than usual.I can go up to 3 posts in one day. Sheesh. NOT A GOOD THING.

I really don't know about this feeling now. I'm really confused. Is this what we really face at times like that? =(
Someone, enlighten me please.

HMMM...

2009-11-03T12:04:00.001+08:00

Currently,im all alone at cheers.waiting for jeanne& the rest to come.SLOW PEOPLE!!!!hahaha.

Okay.. So actually now, I'm feeling kind of IRRITATED by some people's inconsiderate actions. Like if you all are not supposed to do say or ask anything,THEN DON'T DO IT. Why must you make life difficult for others and yourself,when everyone already has enough on our minds alreadyy?!

You all obviously know that I don't like to be entangled in these things, so STOP TRYING to pull me into it!!! URGH.

& to you.
When you've made promise, keep to it,okay?it's not good to lose other's trust in you because of the promise broken.

New Windows 7: Find the right PC for you. Learn more.

2009-11-02T23:15:00.002+08:00

If you take a step back and look at the world around you, things may seem better than you thought, or maybe you may even spot the tiniest of details you missed in the past that you ought to treasure.

Well, that was what i thought after like so long of thinking these few days. Like really, people(including me) tend to take some things for granted in our lives. Only when they realize its too late then they start to regret.

So that's why, I don't regret stopping my hasty pace and look at things slowly and think carefully. Because it really helped me- to gain some of my stability back and also some new insights on many things (:

And finally. I hate to burst your speech bubbles, but I cannot stand it anymore.
DON'T always think you are that great- because you are not. We're putting up with you simply because we still think that you can change. Don't make us dislike you. ):

2009-11-01T13:03:00.002+08:00

WELL WELL WELL.
I'm back from Malaysia and am a satisfied girl! =D
The day started like at 730am and i reached home about almost 1am in the morning. Super shagged i tell you.
The time was well spent(though very tiring), and the money tooooooo.
Bought slippers, cardigans presents and also alot of other things.
BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY-
I had feasts of SUPER DELICIOUS FOOD and my all time favourite STARBUCKS! (:
Shall post the pictures later using Fred's lappy, if he brought it along.

I missed out the reLAC day at sentosa, and by looking at the facebook picture and videos, should be quite fun! ): AND I SAW THE FLASHMOB VIDEO THEY DID AT VIVO. IMBA I TELL YOUUUUU. standing in a straight line without talking and moving for a period of time and attracting alot of attention! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

Plus, the halloween celebrations at CHC, looks super fun toooooo :D All nicely dressed up!

WELL DONE EVERYONE! (:

Yesterday was a tiring day for everyone no doubt(includng me) BUT I KNOW WE ALL HAD FUN!

2009-10-29T22:11:00.001+08:00

OUH SHIT SHITSHIT SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
I HATE THE FUCKING VIRUS. REBOOT THE COMPUTER AND GET IT FUCKING OVER WITH. OMGOMG. I DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW.

2009-10-29T14:35:00.002+08:00

RAH. OMG I AM SUPER SUPER TIRED RIGHT NOW. ):
Headache's coming up. full day lesson today.
I need to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
DIE DIE DIE.

2009-10-28T22:49:00.002+08:00

Actually maybe you didn't know the real them yet? Or you haven got to understand your coping abilities yet. O:

OUH WELL, Random. Just some thoughts after talking to some people.

Suddenly have the urge to blog about a certain topic. But it's kinda sensitive to some, so I think. I'll just spit out my thoughts at another place.(:

Short update for today.
LONG TIRING DAY.
Lessons starts at 9am today, and end at 4pm. NOT REALLY USED TO IT.
But SPSS IS FUN. Ouh and I volunteered to be a class rep. Shove some responsibility&initiative to keep me awake and working hard.Child Lit is.....er. killing my brain cells.
BDD WAS FUN =D After duty lepaked at the refreshment area and talked crap. really LOL. that Val. RETARDED ONLY :P
But tiring ehs. Totally conked out on the bus on the way home. There's duty again tomorrow. Last day, I'm doing the last shift. Hope it'll keep me busy. But then again. THERE'S WAWA!!!! HEEHEEHEEHEE (K) Sad leiyi couldnt do it. but nehmind~

YEAH OGAY ITS 12AM NOW. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDYYYYYYYYY!
GET READY TO FEAST TWO DAYS LATER. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH (:

Ogay. I got to go. Else i can sleep thru whole of tomorrow. TSK.

It's really getting easier to let go now.....

2009-10-27T12:38:00.005+08:00

CRANKY.
VERY CRANKY.
SUPERBLY CRANKY.

YOU KNOW WHAT. TODAY AIN'T A GOOD DAY IN WHOLE, I DON'T KNOW WHY.
and it's not only me feeling this way. RAH.

I ate LORMAI KAI and ICE TEA for lunch+ bfast at 130pm.
Was still full of energy and stuffs. Until about 4pm.
By 6pm.
I have totally no strength and then whole body felt damn weak.
Tired and hungry.
Brain didn't function AT ALL, legs were wobbly when on the steps or walking.
Was holding on to my lappy, suddenly, it just slipped.
My fingers just couldn't grasp anything at all.
And hence, 'BAM' it goes to the floor. And there went my heart and patience with myself.
Hands were fucking trembling like nobody's business.
VERY UNLIKE MY USUAL SELF.

I don't know what came over me. Felt like I could collapse any moment, anywhere.
Quite freaked out by myself. big shit.
And have been feeling quite cranky inside. RAWR.

But I still enjoyed my time with that few BBs I miss so much.

I miss the jokes.
I miss the meals together.
I miss the laughter we had, laughing at everything and anything we can.
I miss waiting for one another after school.
I miss the HTHT WITH THEM.
I miss the late nights with them.
I miss the online mass conversations where we could talk about any shit without caring what other thinks.
I miss every single one of them.
I just miss hanging out with them.
They play an important part of my Poly life, and I don't want them to just disappear.
I want THEM to be part of my future and thereafter too.

I don't wana lose any friends. No more pain I can take.

2009-10-27T12:38:00.002+08:00

2 more day to daddy's birthday!
But haven gotten him a present yet. DANG.

LUNCH WAS HECTIC BUT FUNNYYYYY =D should have more of these 'gatherings' spam MKP!

WAHAHAHAH. And i think, i will grow shorter kay. TSK. I dun wana be as short as the 'tall' girl! ):
OKAY i gotta concentrate on DPL now. BYEEEE.

2009-10-26T23:23:00.002+08:00

OUH HOW I HATE MYSELF.
HOW I HATE HAVING CARDS ON ME NOW.
HOW I HATE HAVING TO DO THE CARD ONCE MORE.
HOW I HATE LOSING OTHER PEOPLE'S STUFF.
HOW I HATE LOSING MY MONEY TOO.

I REALLY HATE MYSELF TO THE MAX.
I SUCK AT KEEPING THIS. AND THIS REALLY PISSES ME OFF. I SHALL SWEAR NOT TO BRING OUT MORE THAN TWO CARDS ON ME WHERE EVER I GO NOW.

On a lighter note. There's turtles lunch tomorrow! AND NOW BECAME LAC GATHERING. O:
HOW! oh em geeee.

2009-10-25T22:54:00.002+08:00

LOVE YOU LOADS MY DEAR! (:

YES. I am bored at home with my laptop facing me. And only left with 2/3 of a unread book out of my whole collection. ):
So hence these photo edits. hee.

Should have gone biking, but I fell asleep. Potential napster now I am. HAH.
Its gonna be a LOOOOOONG day tomorrow, though I end at 1pm.
Gotta go for BDD meeting at 6pm (ZOMG). whole day in school. Bless me.

Yesterday's service kept running through my mind, like it is trying to tell me a message or some sort. And I'm still unclear of what it is supposed to mean to me.
Yeah, seek Him and I will find my way(:
Service was great yesterday, really. Though pastor Tan is as chim as always =/

I'd rather things were back to the beginning.
The butterflies were always there when it's anything to do with you.
Letting go is showing you how much you mean to me.

2009-10-25T14:16:00.002+08:00

It's four more days to daddy's birthday, 6 more days to M'sia trip for food feasting with family.

My weekend schedules are hectic. Im gonna miss out the HALLOWEEN fun with w378. But great time to spend with family, it covers up. (:

Life's a bitch, and so are you.

Referring to no one, just some random phrase that keeps running through my mind after reading something.

Which reminds me. I need to hurry and get a new collection of novels stock up.

I have depleted my reading collections of books. And find it boring to stay at home now. TSK.

There's only ONE PATHETIC BOOK LEFT TO READ.

Did I mention, my house is one hell of a war zone now? ha.ha.

Am gonna seek shelter for myself now.

TOODLESS. ):

2009-10-25T00:38:00.002+08:00

I LIKE IT'S TYPE

AM REALLY FUN LIKE

BORED. BORED. TO THIS!

:D O: -.-

IT'S A BORING

SATURDAY NIGHT! ):

FOR THE FIRST TIME EVERRRRR. I WANA STAY OUTSIDE.

ANYWHERE.

~~AND I WANT TO GO DRINKING. IT'S SO LONG SINCE I LAST DRANK ):~~

2009-10-23T23:45:00.002+08:00

Went for IP tutorial at 9 am in the morning instead of 4pm.Had to go checkup for my eyes, and more importantly, GO SEE THE GRADUATION FOR MY KIDDOS! :D :D

Very very very proud of them yeah! (: They really did really well and so did the rest of the children~ Well done!

The bond among me and kiddos grew stronger. CRAPZ. Its harder not to miss them now. ):

But still, I had fun today, and am currently drained out of energy by today and the msn convo with NINJAS. :D

LUNCH ON TUESDAY,SLACKERZ!

Must bring helmet, else I sure die. asshole KAHMENG's gonna aim for my head. TSK.

HAHAHHA. Too high during the convo, now even more tired.

Going off now, have svc tomorrow. need sleep.

Like every other day.

2009-10-22T13:28:00.003+08:00

Fourth day of school. Things are more or less normal I guess?

Just that there are more morning slots than last semester. Good and bad. I have to sleep earlier, and now my max time to stay up late is 1230 plus minus. GOOD.

I'm better at controlling outburst of emotions now. Or rather, I'm keeping things to myself. And people said I've mellowed down. True, because, I can't keep up with that amount of energy since I have been having late nights.

Maybe it's because, I've seen many things throughout this holiday and attachment, got more breathing space for me to think over things and my decisions. (:

I want to be a sensible girl, not someone who leads by her feeling only and not head. I always have full of emotional moments, but I must hold back ,because I don't wanna become someone too reliant and vulnerable.
Give me this chance, will you?

2009-10-20T21:59:00.016+08:00

Here comes the update for HMS LAC (:

The long, late one. HEHE.

DAY 1:

Woke up like super uber early to go meet up some To4 for final preparations of AML's presents. Super super retarded ,the things we gave her, BUT FUNNY. 17 random stuffs and many many ugleh AML face all over the ball.HAHA.
And then everyone met together, we went to register. Then went up to gather in the room and put our things. Was in the same group as Cheryl again, plus there was Daren too :D
Waited awhile, then we had ice-breaking games, and got to know our groupmates(:
Me, Cheryl, Daren, MingMing, Elaine, Kah Meng, Eddie, Jun Xian and our GLs- Weiling and Jun Kang :D

Wasn't that hard to break the coldness among us, cos we just talked to each other like we were friends since ages ago. hahah! We bonded with purple group knowns as the pedophiles BARNEYS and were all high! haha. there was Eric, Jeanne, Miaoling, Saunders, Darren, Guo Hao, Michelle, Wing Sze and Jaysen..Went for the games, got wet, dirty and laughed ALOT. Then made the flags, NINJA TURTLES :D heeheehee.
Super random I tell you! BUT I LIKE ;D Bonded quite well and then flag making we drew turtles and got our turtles band.play and smeared each other's faces with the paint.MANY THINGS HAPPEN BUT I FORGOT. OUHOUH.There was passing water bombs and night walk! Dawn freaked me out with her laughter during the water bomb game. TSK. Scared the shitzo out of me to sit beside her. HAHA. But it was fun, to pass the bomb and burst it at our sitting partners BURST,OR GET BUSTED.The night walk activities were funneh. Especially when We had to shave toothpaste and shaving cream off balloons and play cold lame jokes game. HAHAHA, total retardedness, BUT FUN (:
And everyone got a chance to lead to another station, which was cool, everyone got a chance at displaying their leadership skills ;D
The food was okay, and we were pretty hungry by dinner(:
And i know, I only slept for two frigging hours. TIRED shitz.
OUH ONE THING IS A MUST MENTION!
ERIC LOOKS RETARDED AND GEEKY IN HIS SPECS, HAHAHAHAHHA! Couldn't stop laughing at him the moment I glance upon his face xP Super funny I SWEAR. Cos his eyes grew ALOT smaller. hehehehe! And because of that he developed a habit of knuckling my head, HURTS LKE HELL.AND THEN KAH MENG THE ASSHOLE LEARN FROM HIM AND DO THE SAME THING TO ME. ppppfffffffft ):
But still, funny shit. small geeky eyes. LOL.
Slept on the uncomfy floor as my bed with the super cold aircon. BUT thing was, we had like 7 girls to one big classroom. shiok TTM. But still tired.

DAY 2:

Woke up at like 5 plus to get ready -.- LIKE REALLY SHAGGED CAN.
Then I joined them for breakfast and some games before going to piano lesson. Reached there early, so I ended early :D
Was super tired and listless throughout the session, feel so guilty. And then went to grandma place to throw my books there and joined them at Jurong East MRT(:
Went to I forgot where. But we went around to the parks of Singapore. And there was few activities I remember only. The TAICHI one, where Matthew was there. Super retarded but nice (: And then the one at parkway? SUPER TIRING. But, we still went to 6 outta 8 stations, not bad. Actually thought of not finishing even half. and then go STEAMBOAT. HEEHEEHEE. But not enough time -.- TRAINED back to Clementi, bought dinner and bfast for next day or the night's supper. like all bread :D heeheehee. bumped into our bestest allies the BARNEYS, and we went back together again(:
Had dinner, Which i ate bread and1/4 only, totally sugggg. After dinner we showered, and then had activity and watched dunno what in the common room. OUH. THE HOKKIEN L4D INTRO AND CHARLIE! :D lmao, seriously.especially the L4D, ninjas were super hyped at that mostly eddie. And all joined in the fun. hee.
After that the slowly picked two by two to go for the night walk.

This MUST MENTION. FIRST TIME THIS KIND OF NIGHTWALK :D

So it was like un-scary and scary and hilarious at the same time.
We were blindfolded and went into the lift. Then it stopped at almost every level I think. And we got out at don't know what level, Instructions were to go into the room, conquer all the obstacles without climbing over the tables or under it. SO, me and Jeanne were coupled together. And we went in, after taking out the blindfold-she half blinded, I'm 3/4 blinded.NO SPECTACLES MAH. And we were like laughing the whole way throughout because of the spastic things we did and said. AND SHE SUAN ME AND WHOEVER WAS INSIDE BURST OUT LAUGHING CAN. ): Because we had to climb the table and she thought she too short to climb. And so she say. 'aye. i cannot climb the table, your legs shorter than mine, sure more jialat, cannot make it one-laughs evilly-' (In chinese)
AND THEN I HEAR PEOPLE SNIGGERING. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. BUT, nehmind, the whole thing was funny(: when we went out, people keep asking us whether we were okay, they heard our laughter from outside. -oooops- Then we went out, went to another classroom, watched a show that is....heh. Dunno how to describe(:

STAYED THERE TILL LIKE 2AM. O: tired SHITZO. And went to sleep at about 245? BUT WAS WOKEN UP BY THE GLS ):
They asked some question and then I back to my sleep at 3plus? Another 2+ hours of sleep only. Super tired. Like never really slept.

DAY 3:

Woke up at about 5 this time and then got ready for breakfast. ZOMBIFIED. Went to the vending machine area,
was supposed to talk about campfire item, I guess, we side-tracked alot and then talked about other things
While munching on to our breads(:
So most of us didn't eat Bfast provided(:
Then after that got ready for walk to WCP. :D It was one hell of a walk, we talked, joked played and of course, CAMWHORED! Because Daphne and Grace were with us, two cameras~
While walking we ka-chiao some secondary school students and waved to people randomly. Hee. We were like enjoying oursleves in the walk, yeah yepyep (: It kinda help all of us to bond even more, whats with all the talking and playing around. I LIKE (:
Was supposed to reach SCP at about 11, BUT. We stopped at 7-11 to grab drinks, and then we got stucked there.Simply too sian'ed and lazy to walk the whole way in the rain. HEEHEE. So...
We went to eat PRATA~ Talked and slacked there till rain stopped. AND GUESS WHAT. MET THE BARNEYS AGAIN :D heeheeheehee. I LOVE JEANNEEEEE-randoms- because we can have our gum-dum talk. :P
And then after that walked with the BARNEYS to WCP, had our group activities.

First one was drawing in the sand and then had to bury Eddie in the sand. WE LOVE BETRAYING OUR GROUPMATES! :D Learn from Eddie one. hehe. And then went on to play captain's ball with the SMs. TURTLES FTW, WE PWN-ED THEM! heeheee. But I couldn't play, thanks to my hurtiing ankle at that moment. TSK ):
BUT, GOOD JOB GUYS,nice team work! (:
Last station, interesting. Have to use one marker, and each person a string, draw a given picture, everyone mus use the strings to control the marker. SUPER NICE. We did well too :D
And then chionged to the stage with all the other groups and blah.
played ICE AND WATER. SUPER COOL GAME :D
Once again, NINJA AND BARNEY TOTALLY OWNED! Teamwork people, teamwork -beams-
Within 1 minute, we got all the Water. heeheehee. super cool. Then played against the SMs and GLs. Super COOOOL. Had a draw, so we throw the remaining water bombs at them, and they did the same. THING WAS- the SMs had CURRY BOMBz! OMFG. stinkass.
Had a hell load of fun, and was damn tired by the time we were on our way back to school. Slept and the guys try to take snapshot. HAHA. failed. (: Reached school, Packed our stuff for staying in the loft and then took 40minutes to plan our campfire item. IMBA. :D
VERY VERY LAZY to talk about campfire, but I had fun,and I thought everyone did a GRRRREEEEEAT job(:

After campfire AML and DEB went off. The rest of us went to enjoy the rest of the night. NO LIGHTS OUT! WOOOOTS. Tonned outside loft with BARNEYS & TURTLES. Super funneh. HEE. GUOHAO DROOLED. JAYSEN GOT FREAKED AND SAUNDERS & ERIC ARE GAYS AS USUAL. Had Macs for supper at 4am and then slept for 2hours from 5-7. SUPER TIRED.

DAY 4:

Last day of camp. We packed up things and brought everything to the common room and gathered. Had telematch, and I couldn't crawl cos, my leg would get itchy. missed out the fun ): But had fun guarding the flags when the Ex-Cos were trying to act friendly taking all our flags.HEEHEE.
Went to join them in the last lap of the game and the whole camp formed the word HMS and took pictures (:
After that went back into the common room and collected watched some slide shows and did some cheers. Had prize presentation, and everyone got a common identity, SMs, GLs, campers, and Ex-cos alike!
After everything, went for lunch with Jeanne, Jess, Michelle, Eric, Saunders, GuoHao, Eddie at Mad Jack, laughed alot there, talked alot crap and did retarded stuffs. but food was YUMMY TOO :D
Went to island creamery to eat again, and chatted and laughed like nobody's business, heehee. Then finally about 5, everyone wana go off. Me and guo hao decided to cab back. We totally conked out after a few minutes and we almost missed Guo Hao's place. Reached home, and unpacked and slept for 19 hour straight.

OVERALL, even though the number of attendees were not alot,
but we all enjoyed and bonded- not only amongst our groups or campers, but
campers and committees all.
Had a splashing amount of fun, and learnt alot
things from this camp.
It's really a new experience, especially the night
walk. To me, its kinda like a activity to see how we control our
fears,leadership and partnership all in once. But, still, it was a nice one.
Unforgettable.

And also, the acitivies didn't really matter a lot to
us. It is more of how we all bonded with one another within groups, between
groups. The winnings and losing didn't matter to us, as long as we had fun.
Thats why the turtles are so slackerz :D heehee. MISS THE CAMP! ):
A VERY BIG THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO MADE THIS CAMP SUCH A SUCCESS AND FUN HAPPENING ONE! (:

2009-10-20T14:17:00.004+08:00

SO now what?

2009-10-20T00:51:00.001+08:00

Yeah,I'm feeling fatigue.very,actually. but its like,everyone expects me to be hyped like before?
SORRY, not possible. unless i just faint on the spot & sleep for 3 straight days at least.Or just get another one month holiday break just slacking. Or simply,just be alone myself somewhere .

& YOU, i really don't know what should i say to you- when you either turn a deaf ear to our words, or treat it like a pile of bullcrap?(or so i think.) it's getting harder to communicate with you now. & i don't like that. I want things the way it was BEFORE. ):

yup, I'm getting more 'wordless' or speechless as the days passes. Back to my old self,where i keep to myself. I don't know why, but i feel like I've told & shown you too much of the inner me, I'm now vulnerable.

whatever,nights.

Chat online and in real-time with friends and family! Windows Live Messenger

2009-10-18T00:31:00.002+08:00

AHHHHH.

I shall organise the pictures tomorrow and update. Yes i lied. HAHAHA.

BECAUSE MY COUSIN IS AT MY PLACE.

And IMAGINE. After 3 straight nights of sleeping on the floor and only get to sleep on my bed for two days, I HAVE TO SLEEP ON THE FLOOR AGAIN, THANKS TO HER. TSKKKKK.

HAHAHAHAHAHHA.

ANDIE.GO DIE. :D

2009-10-17T02:51:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHA.

NEVER SEEN SOMEONE WEIRD LIKE YOU TO SPEAK THIS WAY, BUT I LIKE :D

REALLY RETARDED.

So, this tells us not to judge a book by its cover. (:

OKAY. gonna crash. shall blog tomorrow. REALLLLLLY.

2009-10-16T12:52:00.002+08:00

UNDER OUR UMBRELLAAAAAA~

PURPLE AND GREEN GROUP FTW! :D

TO4 FTW!

HMS LAC FTW!

CAMPERS FTW!

Die, I feel so HIGH now! hahahhaha. But camp was really really enjoyable! Though the number of people wasn't alot, THE FUN WAS THERE~

Will do a proper post later today. (: But I'm gonna go take pictures from FB and upload mine first. Toodles~

2009-10-10T23:58:00.002+08:00

YEAH. This is really nice. Thanks to Jo for showing me!

Credits to Sonia and Janice(:

I rotted today at home today, because the downpour spoilt my plans. HMFPH.

NO MORNING BIKING TRIP WITH LEONGZ, only rotting at home doing my work. ):

And so I packed my room a lil more :)

And then went to meet up with AH QIAN to pass her discs back. After almost a year. HAHA.

Walked around and talked about a lot of things that worry us Especially the juniors of TCB. Hope things goes well for them,

whether it's O levels, band or friendships. (:

WEIJIE-
study hard aye. Os are here SOON, don't be too complacent about it.
Though you have done well these times, Os are always the final say in your hard work and arrogance.
It may lift you, it may bring you down. You do, you decide.
Doesn't mean you have a spot in NP now, you can be cocky aye.

And then, I came back, AND STONED fell aslp straight until 11pm! HORRIBLE.

Haven't slept well these few days. Either sleeping at 4-5am or short hours. OH MY, HOW TO SURVIVE CAMP ON MONDAY! O:

Which reminds me. Deb, Gen and me are the only ones without partners from t04 in the camp!. ZZZ. Ouh welllllllls. \

We shall make more new friends then~

B1 is going too :D heehee. GAY PURPLE BRO :D

Tranny Jo and gang maybe coming for camp fire too! hee. It'll be fun, and i know it'll be TIRING TOO. Because of the previous experience from HMS camp. ZZZ.

And I have yet to pack my bag. DANG. Soon.soon.

2009-10-10T12:39:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry.

I think, it's better for us to remain as friends or good friends, but not any more than that.

I don't think you realize how much just thinking makes me feel sad.

I've been pondering about this matter for a long time already and I think, this is the best way for us.

Because, I don't know what are we supposed to be with the current status, and I am not comfortable with it.

2009-10-08T10:17:00.001+08:00

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever
watched kids

On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to
the rain

Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a
butterfly's erratic flight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading
night?

You better slow down.

Don't dance so
fast

Time is short.

The music won't
last

Do you run through each day

On the
fly?

When you ask How are you?

Do you hear the
reply?

When the day is done

Do you lie in your
bed

With the next hundred chores

Running through
your head?

You'd better slow down

Don't dance so
fast

Time is short.

The music won't
last

Ever told your child,

We'll do it
tomorrow?

And in your haste,

Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good
friendship die

Cause you never had time

To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.

Don't dance
so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't
last

When you run so fast to get somewhere

You
miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry
through your day,

It is like an unopened gift...

Thrown away.

Life is not a
race

Do take it slower

Hear the
music

Before the song is over.

should I, Can I, would I, must I ?

2009-10-05T01:19:00.005+08:00

Class outing in another few hour's time.

Gonna skate/cycle that oil in me and the troubles away.

And then BBQ the night away too! (gain back the fats. DANG)

Totally anticipating it and I can't wait :D

Ouh and I am considering closing this blog down.

Still thinking.

Because I think its super super troublesome to do everything again.

Am now rushing to make my piano notes,

and hopefully finish the piano homework. =/

Last minute works again. GAH.

I think, I'll be late to meeting Nissa and be late to ECP.

But die die must wake JESSTHELAZYASS up (:

Suddenly I remembered something.

Just last year,

I would always think of that certain you.

But now, after everything and we stopped talking,

I totally even forget your birthday until now.

3rd October.

HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY (:

Ciao everyone.

2009-10-04T22:17:00.003+08:00

8 Lamborghini.

2 Mercedes SLS.

4 Porches.

All at the same time, same place.

IT'S REALLY THE EYE FEAST MAN. Especially the Lamborghini! :D

& i took a few pictures of the cars~

Hehehehe. But only one's up. Cos this is my favourite one other than the black colour lamborghini, cos its a blur picture. TSK.

2009-10-03T21:47:00.002+08:00

FINALLY~

I've completed my assignments for IP and its ready to be handed up!

The frigging stack is 1cm thick okay -.-

Nevertheless, I'm super happy that I'M FREE FROM LATE NIGHTS.

This is why, I am given a chance to upload ALL my recent pictures. A LOT. And I'm super super lazy to upload ALL into FB, so i'll just put as a collage and upload -beams brightly- I know, save everyone form T04 the trouble (:

It's time for my hiatus already, slowing down. No interruptions at all.

I'm ignoring you for the sake of myself. Because I don't want to fall too deep.

♥ ON A LIGHTER NOTE

2009-10-01T00:53:00.005+08:00

Guess who I bumped into at library today!

♥

Can anyone imagine how happy I am by just meeting her by chance!! O:

Heeheeheehee.

Of course there is a NEED & WANT to take peektures!

Totally slacked some after going Daiso today with JOR.

Went library to wait for her BF, and i bump into Hsienny and JohnnyPoon and BenChia (:

Really missed her much, and her promos are OVERRRRR. which i have to wait to see her results 1st. AUNTIE CHIN YOU BETTER PASS AND PROMOTE I TELL YOU OR GET KICKED IN YOUR SMELLY ASS BY ME! :D

The whole time I was on the way back, memories flooded me.

Yeah, totally nostalgia now.

2009-09-29T22:31:00.003+08:00

I miss what we had in the past, the innocent lives of ours, cousins by blood or not. Parents were not able to interfere with our lives with all these nonsense. I'm really glad daddy lets me stay over. Because its been a long time since I had feelings this way.

In one way or another, I felt lonely at home. Because, recently, there was simply no one at home that I could talk to when I reached home or whatsoever.
GAH. not gonna say all these here and show my emo side again.

Shall be off to do my work now, chiong finish all those crappy assignment and enjoy the hell outta myself tmr. Its been real long since I last ton-ned. I WONDER. HAHA (:

When I said IMY, i meant it.

2009-09-27T00:56:00.002+08:00

Skipped dinner for 3 consecutive days now. No appettite to eat at all after lunch. I think I'm full of thoughts instead. HAHAHA. crappy shit.

To YOU, im being super COLD to you. Because, I just want my time to myself. I don't understand why you could get what I keep telling you that, and u still don't give me peace.

IM ALREADY FRUSTRATED ENOUGH, can you stop irritating me to let me have some time to myself? Not everyone can be there for you whenever and where ever you expect of us.

I just want people to be my listening ear too, but with you, I'm not given any chance to talk.

I am sorry for being this bad, but I guess, without having to go to this extreme, you will NEVER learn your lessons.

I know you won't read, so I'm fine posting here.

OUH AND. If I am unwilling to talk to you and confide in you about some things,please STOP bothering me by constantly trying to dig it out of me! I'M REALLY SICK OF IT.

To make it sound unpleasant,

LEAVE ME ALONE and DON'T BE SUCH A BUSYBODY, IT'S GETTING ON MY NERVES!!!!!!

Im tired of being there for you always but you never were there for me.

One last thing before I go.

Sorry, YOU have to actually hear the bad things instead of good ones. The outburst of emotions and words just came naturally when I saw Angie =/ Now i feel bad, for I initially had no intention of people knowing, but then I suddenly got so worked up yesterday, I guess, most of you heard what I said before CG started. SORRY SORRY SORRY.

I'll get back on my feet soon, I must.

2009-09-26T00:37:00.000+08:00

ACTIONS GONE OVERBOARD.
ANGER OVERLOADING.
MOTHERBOARD IS GIVING OUT STEAM.
EXPLOSION OCCUR.
SUSPECT STILL NOT CAUGHT.

THIS IS SOMEHOW LIKE WHAT IS HAPPENING AT HOME. KICK MY ARSE SHITTY CRAPS!
FAGGOT. FAGGOT FAGGOT FAGGOT.
IM REALLY FEELING VERY VERY VERY PISSED NOW.

And thats an understatement actually.

Things at home have been way too exciting NOT, causing me to have insomnia and feel super uber SHAGGED. Now tell me this is NOT HAPPENING. PLEASE SOME TAKE THAT ONE HELL OF AIRHEAD AWAY.

Its hard to keep that smile on my face now. I really loathe this feeling.

2009-09-25T15:05:00.002+08:00

Whoosh. I hate to be bothered by YOU!

BECAUSE, YOU SIMPLY CANNOT BE BOTHERED ABOUT HOW WE FEEL. CRAP. FAGGOT.

Maybe I don't seemed concerned to you, but I can't believe I spent like 4 hours of my supposed sleep to worry about you! FUCK. REALLY FUCK IT.

2009-09-23T22:18:00.002+08:00

I AM FEELING VERY SAD BY THE WAY. BECAUSE I MISS MY KIDS ):

LIKE REAL MUCH.

Sad thing is, I cannot post their pictures here, but I still will post it somewhere (:

Their hugs, kisses, words, laughter, smiles, cheekiness, tears, tantrums, rebellion and so on.But most of all- just their innocent faces and hearts.

I can still remember the first day, so clearly in my mind. How they came up to me, without any fear in their eyes, and ask for my name once and trying to remember. How their hugs are so sweet and tight, and they will tell you everything that happened, how they will just cuddle to you for the love of it.

Their little hands, grasping my fingers for attention, trying to catch my words, and me doing likewise. And when they get it, the smile- URGH. Irreplaceable, I swear.

I will remember L and P crying everyday for their parents, and when they lose sight of me, they will cry.

I will remember BABY,MIDDLE,SEMI BIG and BIG Js for their everything.

I will remember N2 for the class that doesn't look like a buch of 4 years old but like K2s or Primary1; nevertheless, they were so fun to be with.

I will remember N1 as the class of dominating Boys and one damsel in distress NOT; where they are the ones I love the most because of their sunshine smiles and lovely hugs.

I will remember the playgroup with the cheekiest kids and weirdos, but lovely bunch. Huggable bolsters most of them are, and prettiest eyes from there.

I will remember the K1s and K2s of their laughter, curiosity and fun. The diversity they have is great and I think they'll turn out to be fine teenagers.

Last but not least, I will remember the teachers, who gave me guidance through this month, and letting me engage in all the activities possible, to expose myself more to the setting. Thank you all for your support! :D

Still, I will miss the kids. Seriously miss them.

"Sometimes you just need to be alone. Sometimes, not even your best friend needs to know. Sometimes, you need to put up the walls so you can examine yourself in the peace and quiet. Sometimes, the loud sounds need to fade away, leaving the silence and you; that's it."

This phrase extracted from Jess.(been extracting a lot from her)

It is dedicated to some of my Sis and Bros who are encountering these kind of problems like me now.

2009-09-21T22:59:00.010+08:00

Nobody can bring you peace but yourself
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

It isn't enough to talk about peace. One must believe in it. And it isn't enough to believe in it. One must work at it.
-Eleanor Roosevelt

We live in a moment of history where change is so fast, we only see the present, when it is already gone.

-R. D. Laing

In three words, everything about life can be sum up: it goes on. Its not the length of life that holds the importance, it is the depth of life that does.
-Robert Frost & Ralph Waldo Emerson

Now you kind of know, whats bothering me. So stop doing the same thing.

If you think its you, then it is. if you think it ain't then it isn't.

I think, its time for us to really think, how to learn the ways of life, in a better way. I can't really stand things going this way.

Sooner or later, I swear, I'm going on a long, long hiatus. Just really me, myself, I and wherever I want to be, whoever I want to be.

2009-09-19T20:59:00.002+08:00

like SUPER YAYENESSSSSSS :D

I Just love things like this. HEEHEE. tee oh fourrrr. here i comezxzxz (:

KIll me now, Please.

2009-09-11T01:02:00.001+08:00

And hence once AGAIN. I got stucked at 128. HOW CRAPPY IS THAT.

But good news, I PASSED AND GOT MERIT! MUAHAHHAHAHA!

Now I can REALLLLY stop worrying for the results and wait for the comments by the examiner. HEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEE.

Something, Sometimes, Somewhere.

2009-09-10T22:11:00.002+08:00

2009-09-08T22:56:00.003+08:00

“We spend half our life sleeping, but we spend our whole life waiting. Waiting in lines, waiting for times, waiting to be old enough, waiting for a call. We’re always waiting. We just don’t always realize it. waiting for someone to say something, waiting for them to notice you. Constantly waiting for that one person, and they have no idea you’re waiting for them.”

Got this form Jess's blog. meaningful yet painful aye. HAHAHHA. We're all in the EMOTIONAL STAGE NOW. CHEEP UP!! tee-oh-fourrrrr. I miss you ALL like seriously....! ): I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU GUYS LIKE THIS FRIDAY FOR IP TUTORIAL. I've got good and bad things to shareeeee.

Though I talk to some of you almost everyday, IT'S DIFFERENT FROM FACE TO FACE TALKING UHS -raising eyebrows emoticon-

I wonder how we will all be like now, after the internship. How much we'll talk, what we'll say, do, think. And then what will the teachers think of our reactions to certain stuffs.

TEE OH FOUR. IS REALLY MISSED~ XD

THOUGHTS. For now.

2009-09-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

IF I COULD BE LIKE THAT by 3 Doors Down.

He spends his nights in California, {He spent his whole life being to young,}

Watching the stars on the big screen, {To live the life that's in his dreams,}

Then he lies awake and he wonders, {At night he lies awake and he wonders,}

Why can’t that be me

Cause in his life he is filled

With all these good intentions

He’s left a lot of things

He’d rather not mention right now

But just before he says goodnight,

He looks up with a little smile at me,

And he says,

If I could be like that,
I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that,
what would I do,
What would I do

Now and dreams we run

She spends her days up in the north park,

Watching the people as they pass

And all she wants is just

A little piece of this dream,

Is that too much to ask

With a safe home, and a warm bed,

On a quiet little street

All she wants is just that something to

Hold onto, that’s all she needs

Yeah!

If I could be like that,

I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do

I’m falling into this, dreams,
We run away

If I could be like that,
I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do

If I could be like that,
I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes
If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do

If I could be like that,
I would give anything
Just to live one day, in those shoes

If I could be like that, what would I do,
What would I do
Falling in
I feel I am falling in, to this again.

Day 5: War Ongoing.

2009-09-03T10:32:00.003+08:00

This is real,this is me. I'm exactly what I'm supposed to be now :)

ALRIGHTS. ABOUT TODAY. ONE WORD. BATTLE HALF WON. O: It was the most CHAOTIC day of intern, because:

1)Baobei was in school today from morning! OUH MY.GOOD & BAD(:

2)N2 had FULL CLASS TODAY.N1 ALSOOOO HAD FULL CLASS TODAY.

Total strength: 25

3)I had to shuffle between N1,N2. and I thought that was all. WRONG.

4)THE PLAYGROUP ALSO LACK OF TEACHERS.

Total N1+N2+playgroup: 35!

5)children were out of control for no reasons today

6)While trying to settle my kids for shower, i kicked my FOOT into the leg of the BENCH, and my toenail went into my flesh T_T

7)Baobei SAT ON IT 5MINUTES LATER, and it bled like no one's business.

8)N1 kids stepped on it again later, and I KICK INTO THE BENCH AGAIN DURING MUSIC WITH N1.

HOW BAD CAN THE DAY GETTTT. GAHHHHH. hahahahahahahahha. But funny. I laughed the whole way through. Cos some KIDS were saddistic enough to laugh when i shouted ouch and pain -.- There were some sweet ones too. LIKE MY ALL TIME FAVE.Just realised its all Js.Baby Jaeden Middle Jordan and Big Justin aka.BAOBEI. HAHAHHA. ALL THREE STARTS WITH J.EVEN BAOBEI. HAHAHAHHAHA. They all came up to me, and ask 'teacher pain pain?' THEN CAME AND HUG ME. AWWWWWWW. how sweeeeeeeeeeet!!! x) -hugs-

But in the morning as usual, lessons. Afternoon was more interesting. Cos there's NAP TIME. i get to pat my Baby J to sleeeeeeeeeep :D so cute. I love it when he cuddles towards me. heeheeheehee. He's getting attached to me liao so teacher says.Hee. Nap was WAR TIME COS 3 TEACHERS vs 20 KIDS.

MUAHAHHAHAHA. BUT WE WON. Until the last 30mins -.- hehehehe. And halfway patting them, I actually FELL ASLEEP MYSELF OKAY. Sheesh. The other teachers were trying hard not to also. HAHA!

Which after the nap time, they made a mess, anyhow putting their mattresses. Tsk tsk, those playful kids. And then it was teatime. OMG MY BABY J CRIEDDDDD. Cannot stop -.- Teacher had to walk around with him before he does. Awwww. Hahaha. And then lesson time was as usual chaotic and funnnnnn. Till when N1 went for music lesson. I had to entertain them. so i made them fly like planes. And all couldn't stop. ZZZZZ. hahahahah. Then It was time for all the kids to gather, we watched TOYS STORY. and every one cuddle to me as usual x) Baby J lied on my lapppppy.HEHEHE. And I went home not long after and died. Conking out totally. Using last ounce of energy to type these. There's piano exams tomorrow. SO NOT ANTICIPATING IT. Alrights. time to sleep. NIGHTS! (:

But before I go, there's something to confess. ADDICTIVE J PERIOD IS WHAT IM GOING THRU NOW. HAHAHAH. BABY J! ♡

4th day of internship

2009-09-02T21:38:00.002+08:00

WELL WELL WELL!

It the 4th day of work and 2 more days to piano exams. GAHH.

Which after this week, i can work with a peace of mind& most importantly, ENJOY MY WEEKENDS! :D

Heeheeheeheeheeheeheehee.I'm happy already! Just hope, i dont have to do the replacements on saturdays.

INTERNSHIP DAY 2.

2009-08-28T21:14:00.001+08:00

Had 9-630 internship today, totally DRAINED to the max. never once had I such tiring time, not even at BTPZ finest when I've worked for longer hours! O:

9 hours of work, really had me looking after the kids and trying to get the things done for them. Tough being a teacher. Especially nursery. BUT STILL, NO REGRET. WORTH IT! Cos i get to see the cute kids, especially Jayden!!! :D

Shiats. i think I'M IN LOVEEEEE WITH THAT KIDDDD :D

hahahahahahaha! Really damn funny. And I like their nap time, not bacause i get to sleep (which i don't) but because I get to pat them to sleep and they need alot of coo-ing before they sleep. like literally patting two at a time till they sleep. And then when they cuddle to me, AWWW. SWEET LOVES!

JORDAN& MINH too, even after i finish my internship, I'll never forget(:

AIYA, i think, i will never forget the times I have there. So nice! No matter the N1 or the N2,i had fun. Teachers were also nice to me too, and there's one that graduated from Ngee Ann. the play group and teachers were VERY UBER NICE TO ME TOO and the babies, cute, with all their hugs priceless.

Really, they are bunch of loveable ones.. The hugs they give me and the smile, aww. It melts my heart already!

THREE WEEKS IS TOO SHORT. CAN I ASK FOR MORE? HAHAHAHAHA. =x

Nevertheless, I love N2 which i'm attached to. Ouh man. I'm overwhelmed. BY THEM KIDS. Really feels nice to be there you know, everyone's so nice and knows each other, teachers, children and parents. EVEN THE AUNTIE THERE ALSO SUPER NICE CAN! HAHAHA. I love the food. (x

Experience is so much better than boring lectures in school. I think after internship, when I get back to school, I'm so gonna be not used to it liaoozzx.

REALLY TIRED AND I THINK I USED MY LAST OUNCE ON ENERGY TO FINISH THIS. GOING TO PRACTISE PIANO AND GO TO SLEEP! After sept4, im gonna be MUCH happier, i am so sure(: (: (:

internship-leadip in.

2009-08-28T00:07:00.004+08:00

Today's lead in was a blast.though i enjoyed myself ALOT it also tired me out ): Can' t imagine what will happen for the rest of the month long..

CHILDREN,are really creatures of million curiosity. & I REALLY THINK THEY ARE UBER CUUUUUUTE :*
Ouh welleys.9hrs daily to see their cute faces in return for being drained,WORTH IT. Call me CRAZYYY!!! :D

With Windows Live, you can organize, edit, and share your photos.

meaningful(:

2009-08-27T00:52:00.002+08:00

How to Install LOVE

Tech Support: Hello … how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I’ve decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running?

Customer: Let’s see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ?

Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased. .

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, “Error - Program not run on external components.” What should I do?

Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the “My Heart” directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, God.

-p.s: got this from AML. really meaningful.

Have a pleasant day people (:

2009-08-25T22:06:00.002+08:00

How long does happiness last? As long as one firework?

Will they die out quickly after an explosion,

Like a short-lived beauty in one's life?

PHOTO COLLAGES AGAIN! (:

2009-08-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

MY SWEETEST LOVES!♡

& this is how I'd like to spend my birthday every year.

SIMPLE.

WITH LOVED ONES.

AND ENJOYABLE(:

2009-08-24T01:43:00.003+08:00

I have no faith in myself not to fall deep, because, I am already there.

Last paper tomorrow. I know i promised to post the pictures, but too tired and also studying the last lap. TIRED, BUT I KNOW I CAN DO IT. :D

OUH WELLEYS. I screwed DPL see me next year juniors. Hope i dont do so for PEE too. Or i swear, i will NEVER. NEVER _ __ _ ____ TILL I DO WELL IN STUDIES. ): punishment to myself. zahhhh.

After PEE ends, then its time for internship and piano exams. no time for certain stuffs. BUT I WANT MY JDMKT TIME! I DONT CAREEEEEE. ): I gotta be patience and wait for their promos to end and then can decide *waits, pacing arnd in mind* heeheeheehee. You beeches beta ask me out like soon before i go mad.(x

And then again. before i go off to another world to continue, I ENJOYED MY BIRTHDAY VERY MUCH !! LOVES TO AUNTS PARENTS SIS AND COUSINS!

i♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥m♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡y.

ITS MY 17TH YEAR. OH MAN,! HAHAHAH

2009-08-22T01:33:00.005+08:00

THANKS PEOPLE FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAY WISHES!

Will do a DETAILED update tomorrow. After my Sakae/ any Japan food treat. HEHEHEHEHE.

LOVES PEOPLEEE (:

2009-08-20T01:43:00.003+08:00

STUDY IS KINDA FRUITFUL TODAY :D

I LIKE.

***ADD ON FROM YTD!***

I was late thanks to many reasons. HAHAHHAA. And went lib to look for the very stupid spastically pervertic Jessica. HAHHA. Like throughout the whole time she was pestering me, trying to bite me and we were talking stupid stuffs. AND SHE IS REALLY VERY DEPRIVED OF COMPUTER COS SHE DIDNT BRING HERS!! xD So mine became her source of DISTRACTIONS to her. Reading convos and talking to equally spastic ppl like AML HAHAHHAHAHA

We had sandwiches for BREAKFAST AND LUNCH! She's a meat eater, all the time eat teriyaki chicken only. tsktsk. :P and also i had my chocolate vitasoy! x) x) Which made me like super hungry. -.-

Then had to leave halfway to pass things to aunts. And got real fed up thanks to them. Things are not going for the better but worse. They make more assumptions and then i get judged again. RAHH. and please, I don't even get to either finish my sentences or they don't listen to the full sentence properly b4 opening Their mouths. fwah. ARGH FORGET IT.

It's over anyway :)

And then i went to CCK to meet keng up for dinner,which was spastically funny and crappy thanks to keng -.-

The stupid shaolin soccer song. LOLOL.

And please don't copy how I emo and stone on the bus. GO DIE. WAHAHAHA -prays he reads this- :P

YEAH.Thats was my day. RAWR. i need to add the part of piano inside. ZZZ.

Sept4 exams. ALL THE BEST TO ME ):

Internship, i think i'll tire myself out. and then have no brains for one month. :D

CRAPPY SHIT.

2009-08-18T23:43:00.005+08:00

HA.HA.HA.

You hear that? Don't think so. headache, and the weather now isn't helping at all. Wish I could cuddle in my blankets, and scream all my thoughts, knowledge and everything in it. Like I always used to do. BUT NOOOO. The aircon had to not work at this time, and then can't do that. SCREW IT. Just when I need you the most. You died on me. RAHH

Throws those thoughts aside and STUDY. STOP GETTING DISTRACTED,IDIOT. SHIT TAMMIE. REMEMBER WHAT YOU PROMISED MS KWONG AND YOURSELF.

Timeout for now. I'll try not to be so selfish. Focus for now. Im not gonna let the people who believed in me down.

HERE COMES RETARDEDNESS. AGAIN (:

2009-08-18T16:25:00.004+08:00

Damage of right hemisphere can cause people to become indifferent to or cheerful about things that would normally make them sad. O:

OMG. That kinda describes ME.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Okay, Im like shooting myself for nothing :)

ALRIGHT. I WAS JUST BORED OF STUDYING, THATS ALL. SIANSATION.

By the end of today, I swear I'm gonna spill knowledge out every sentence i speak. IF ANYONE TALKS TO ME.hahahahahaahaahah! -raises eyebrows emoticon inserted- Dang, we sure are starting to talk like AML the ugleh 150MB -.-

我的华语越来越差了。要多用多学多写才可以进步！！

HAHAHA. This is like true, I need to speak MORE chinese and read more -shakes head-

PEOPLE, FLOOD ME WITH MORE CHINESE. PROPER ONES PLEASE. Rawr.

Growth is changes that we undergo physically, while development is something we undergo in complexity.

RAWR. Its like. im really bored. Slacking.

I REALLY THINK I SHOULD START STUDYING.

2009-08-17T23:35:00.002+08:00

Still I just had to play with the PICASA =x

Ouh. I had a mini outing with BLPS peopleeeee. ESHAN CAME BACK FROM BRUNEI AND WE JUST HAD TO MEET HIM. as quiet and slow as usual.

There were only 6 of us by the time we were at BK. Jacob left. So there was Me, Nas, Fandra, Joan, Glenn and of cos, ESHAN(:

And much fun, when in BK, walking or on the bus ride home. And did really retarded stuffs -.-

Like taking part in the pic competition with them at GAP. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.

Im waiting for Fandra to send us the pic! And Joan to upload the rest O: these are from my handphone.

WALKING ON SUNSHINE DAY.

2009-08-17T13:07:00.005+08:00

HEE. I FELL IN LOVE WITH PICASA ♥

Thanks Deb(: and because of that, u shall UPGRADE to 1.5 MB. Congratulations! heheheh

Enjoy the pictures. Credits to ME, and 1.5GB DEB :D

There's alot of AML the UGLEH inside. HAHAH

NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE.

2009-08-16T22:31:00.003+08:00

I just feel

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I don't know. I'm not sure of myself anymore.

The thoughts have been running through my mind like the whole day, can't stop.

RAWR.RAWR.RAWR. KILL ME PLEASEEEEEEEEEE. ):

i kinda hate myself for doing this.

SONG AND VIDEO (:

2009-08-16T21:41:00.004+08:00

SEND IT ON.

A word is just a word

Till you mean what you say

And Love isn't love

Till you give it away

We all got to give

Yeah something to give to make a change

Send it on

On and on

Just one hand can heal another

Be apart

Reach your heart

Just one spark starts a fire

With one little action

The chain reaction will never stop

Make us Strong

Shine a Light and Send it On

Just smile and the world will smile along with you

That small acts of love

That's meant for one will become two

If we take the chances

To change circumstances

Imagine all that we could do

If we...

Send it on

On and on

Just one hand can heal another

Be apart

Reach your heart

Just one spark starts a fire

With one little action

The chain reaction will never stop

Make us Strong

Shine a Light and Send it On

Send it on

There's Power in all the choices we make

So I'm starting now not a moment to wait

A word is just a word

Till you mean what you say

And love isn't love

Till you give it away

Send it on

On and on

Just one hand can heal another

Be apart

Reach your heart

Just one spark starts a fire

With one little action

The chain reaction will never stop

Make us Strong

Shine a Light and Send it On

Send it on

On and on

Just one hand can heal another

Be apart

Reach your heart

Just one spark starts a fire

With one little action

The chain reaction will help things start

Make us Strong

Shine a Light and Send it On

2009-08-15T00:59:00.002+08:00

My classmates, with the retarded notes on my desktop. HEE.

Library mugging session with gum and jess. my small corner. i think i mugged more than them..HAHAHA.

POST TMR. abit lke dead now.

THINKING WITH MY ASS NOW.

2009-08-14T02:19:00.003+08:00

Its a tiring day.

But at least I managed to squeeze some peanut butter and jelly into my brains at starbucks.

HAHAH. Accompanied my dumb dog (heehee) MR LKY to buy his guitar-new wife- and went to starbucks to spam my brain with knowledge. For about.... 3hours?

I was SPAMMED by AML with retarded messaged that made me L.O.L(literally), squeeze more alphabets into my humongous head (according to LKY), Called by my DEAREST(note the sacarsm)EUGENE THUM-takes out dagger- at 11pm when I was on my way home; to teach him some Amath ._. And then, i reached home at 12.45 instead of what shud be 1145!!

The day was somehow short-cos i woke up late- but it was RETARDED, funny and fruitful i guess. It was lucky I had no migrain. And I'm supposed to be sleeping because Im supposed to meet Siti to mugggg at lib tmr at 12. D: and there's freshman package meeting and Subcomm meeting tmr. DANG. KILL ME.

SO MANY THINGS, SO LITTLE TIME.

random much.

2009-08-13T14:24:00.001+08:00

Eh....

HAHAHHAA. I don't know lika what to say.

Just, i need to get out.

TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODLES.

retardedness, totally.

2009-08-12T23:10:00.005+08:00

U know, its been VERYYYYYYYYYY long, since i feel so much stress. And I know, this period of time:

1. I get irritated very easily

2. I have mood swings frequently

3. I laugh at any random thing i find funny

4. I get serious headaches frequently(like once every 2 days.zzz)

5. I NEED TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE TO STUDY.

HA. HA. HA. HA. Which makes me seriously feel like locking up my own lappy and not taking it out till exams end, which i know cannot larh, cos most of my notes inside -.-

Study tam. rmb what bro said, and push yourself. you can do it! i hope. =/

SECRET MISSION REVEALED. birthday celebration for bud and gin na! :D

2009-08-12T14:48:00.004+08:00

the two 08-08-09 bday boys.

me and tg :D

me and my gin na :D

my gin na imbah siol! HAHAHAHAH. thee boys

the girls :D

US! memories to me (:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BUD AND GINNA! HEE.

hope you guys lik ethe card we did -raise eyebrows emoticon-

[BY ANG MIAOLING THE RETARDED UNGLAM SHIT FACE.]

hihihi. i hate my friends (above) HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

NO LA I'M KIDDING. NO I'M SERIOUS. ^~^

OKAY I LOVE YOU GUYS (ABOVE)... --> TOTALLY AGREE.

but i love my friends from T04 MORE, ^^,

2009-08-12T00:11:00.002+08:00

Yes, I'm very tired and contented today.

-yawns- shall lika blog about the secret mission tmr!! (:

Hopes xj and gin na likes our secret mission for them.HAHAHA

OLDIES HANGOUT ♥

2009-08-11T01:00:00.000+08:00

Yeah, as the title say.

Today was 2E'06outing at west coast, but ended up at royston's house -.-

But its nearby anyway, SO NEH-MIND.HAHAHAHHA.

Alright, then we had BBQ for supposedly like 13 ppl, but 9 turned up, and surprisingly. Someone we didn't see for a long time turned up too!

HO JIA REN! Its like, all the chaos in class with him around, super funneh! hahaha.

I wanted to post like all the pictures from sec two, BUT LAZY. go Jared's profile or other ppl's see. hehehee. Hilarious.

We ate, crapped and talked about all the things that happens since sec1 till now(:

Though its a short time, its still FUN AND COOL!

Really love the feeling. Jared and JiaRen, pls organise another outing! :3

After like from 5 till 10 we do all the stuffs, cabbed home with fel, yuwei and Jared. Cos I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GO BACK (Keng u don't laugh). HAHAHHA.

followed bro and melvin blindly mah. Ouh, and we took pictures. at the bbq and after. lika me fel and jared took on the road itself, b4 the vehicles came.hee. thrill but dangerous =/

Shall wait for XL and BRO to upload on FB and post it! hee. ouh yar. i forgot. JIAREN BROUGHT ALCOHOL-raising eyebrows emoticon-

Yeppp! that was my day today. ouh, b4 i end this.

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TADAH!picture of zx trying on the clothes me and gum choose for him. LIKE NICE ONLY RIGHT. just that the size too big. heeheehee. TEE OH FOUR's ONLY SG:D

6 AUGUST's LATE POST.

2009-08-11T00:22:00.000+08:00

MY BLACKFOREST ICE CREAM!yum, i lovetherum-lick lips-

AFTER THAT. went home b4 to get things b4 to get things then go popo hse. BUT GUESS WHICH DARLING POPPED BY! :D

TA-DAH! MY ANCIENT OLD MAN; ZHILIANG THE FUNNEH COUSIN.

OMG, he seriously looks like a frog/toad can.HAHAHHA.

OGAY, so he was actually here not to visit me (-.-) but that ingrate EVELINA HAN, who left him at our hse after he fell aslp and went to play majong. lika what kind of RUDE,BAD,WRONG,LOUSY HOSPITALITY. pffft. & then after dad came back, went to popo hse, fetched him to clementi MRT station. yup, the rest is like i dont wana talk about it, cos its bad, when it wasnt supposed to be ):

And why not? (:

2009-08-10T15:51:00.003+08:00

RED WHITE DAY+LAST PROP LESSON

WHERE IS GENEVIEVE SEAH!!hahahha.

This is why my days in school are always fun.Because you guys are always there for me.THANKS SO MUCH TEE OH FOUR!! :D

FRIENDS,

2009-08-09T10:15:00.004+08:00

i think we all look nice here XD

red-white day crazeee!

heeee.unglam much during lectures.

HAHAHA. wayne ma likes being joseph stalin -.-

OUHOUHOUH AND THIS ONE DAMN FUNNY. bojongsaurus aka jo the shorty, lika drew this cos he no mood to study.HAHAHA.then he damn stupid. cos its like, HE CAN'T REACH IT TOO?! and he tried to suan me. -.- retarded or whatzx.

Seriously, he was that bored to even think about all these -.- LOL.

I have retarded friends, but still, i enjoy their company, 'cos they put a smile on my face. (:

2009-08-08T12:17:00.000+08:00

Maybe, just MAYBE, I know why I have two different types of feeling at home and in school.

One of the contributing factors, really wrenched my heart, inside out from the most deepest place. It was ripped so many times before, I didn't know it actually still hurts this much.

Really not a good night yesterday. It has been quite awhile since I felt so bad. And cried so badly. Twice, even. Maybe my moodswing did contribute to triggering it, but I am pretty sure it was the heartache that was the first and last ever reason for it.
If you wana try put me down, you succeeded okay. My sister and I, we both did the same thing, yet you only scolded me, fine, i accept. Then, u went to tell EVERYBODY, like it was my fault? And also, missed out the part, where sister did the same thing. SO NOW WHAT. Blatantly telling me you'll always show biasedness towards her and not me? Well, I dont appreciate it. In fact, it really hurts, because of the words you said.

And YOU too. If I don't even have the rights to rest awhile after studying for some time, staring at the book making notes; then i dont know what. But the phrase you said like everytime and will forever hang on ur mouth when i study, REALLY HURTS. I just wanted to go over to popo hse, to have a much less distractions and more focus on studies, is that a wrong thing to do?

Why not just let me study there? Why must you chose that time to play majong and not let me study in peace. WHY WHY WHY. I know you want to relax, but DON'T WE ALL. I just want peace and quiet, is that too much to ask for? If you wanted to play, why didnt you tell me, so i can go home and study instead. Really, Idon't know what to think, do and say anymore.

2009-08-05T12:19:00.002+08:00

Piaget and Vygotsky's theories can just flatten me totally and kill me instantly. Totally no idea how to use their theories to do the case studies. writing essays are my worst fears now.HAHAHAHHAA.

Think i'll crap my way thru to show her at least sth.HEE.

BYE

2009-08-05T08:46:00.001+08:00

Feeling joy and happier now cos

FINAL PROJECTS ARE LIKE FINALLY OVER. STUPID REPORT IS DONE AND OVER WITH :D

Yeah i know. look at the time now.

2009-08-04T10:32:00.004+08:00

**decided to delete the front part to stop people from questioning me.**

And she's again into a squabble with mummy, im in the middle again. Hate it, like seriously. YOU BOTH DONT APPROACH EACH OTHER TO TALK WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO.

I cannot always be the one who gets it. I'm already trying very hard to be a good girl, don't do this to me.

EMO SHIT.

2009-08-04T01:55:00.002+08:00

Suddenly,

I WANNA SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT.

And thennn.

PARDON ME, for all that i've typed, its just rushing through me like NOW, so imma typing it now, or i will ponder about it and cant sleep -.-

Recently like there's alot of things happening, i really feel like going on a hiatus. Only contacting my family and classmates. Like being emo-mode. Cos i think i needa have a emotional rest and also physical break from things. People says im crazy, but who knew, it actually aint my real self, seriously. Its more likely, Im going crazy, maybe to avoid myself getting all worked-up for nothing. But still, i need the exercise and also the study time to reward myself for being so selfish man. I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT IM TALKING 1/3 OF MY TIME RECENTLY. JUST FULL OF BULLSHIT AND CRAP. I just don't feel Im like me ME. I want to be just me ME. I don't know how to explain, but there are times when im just putting on a mask to face everyone. Family, Friends and everybody. I just don't feel ME now.
Well, after all these thoughts rush through my mind, i suddenly feel that it's not for nothing that i put the extra mile, stretch myself thin and reach out to those who needs me. It's always worth the time to see the smile on the people I love and care for, the friends I have.
Because maybe, thats what I live my life for, my purpose. And that people find comfort in me being just there for them. Maybe im not so alone, so sad afterall.

LEARN TO PRIORITIZE,TO GIVE MY ALL WHEN I CAN AND TO BE MYSELF TO EVERYBODY, FOCUS ON MY PATH MY GOAL.(:
Just hope i can really do this.

2009-08-03T15:22:00.003+08:00

I have got MOUNTAINS of things to study! Argh.

PEE has history, case senarios, Dev appropriate practices, RAH RAH, and rah rah. too many.

And then got child psychology too. ALOT, too to even NAME them out.

KILL MEHH. K.I.L.L. M.E.! ):

Crap mans, we only have two weeks, i need to totally like CHIONG AND PIA.

WHO WANA GO MUG WITH ME!! ):

ANYONE WILL DOOOOOOOOO.

Fwah. Im feeling the huge amount of stress now. HA. serve me right.

Emo shit, seriously, i swear.

I think I will go on a HIATUS and not blog. If i can. hehehehe (:

Don't miss me and my exciting stories! ^^

TOOOOOOOOODLES.

2009-08-02T19:07:00.010+08:00

21 GUNS- GREEN DAY

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Suddenly, this song makes me think of alot of things. Like so many things at once. Rush of emotions at this time.ha. Especially those countries in war now, the lyrics reallllllly is for them.This is the reason why I like GREENDAY. Their songs holds a meaning. Whether you get it or not, its how you listen and feel the music.I realised I've been posting weird stuffs recently. Very weird. Don't know why too. Too busy to update in words, yet I'm able to come and post craps like this when taking a break from DPL.SLACKER I am, but I'm still trying fo my stamina. Whether i succeed, is up to my determination and preserverance. I really plan to put unnecessary stuffs at the back of my mind now. Misses very much. _ I know we all haven been able to meet up like recently. Sorry, cos I've been very busy, and I know you are too. But, just wana say, Im still here if you ever have a need. Suddenly have this feeling of missing _ alot. I need to catch up, I seriously do.